I know I am getting old but since I turned 80 it seems to be happening much more quickly. I fear the spirit is still willing as ever but the flesh is just so weak.
I often think of you and how badly injured you were when that stupid car driver swung to the wrong side of the road and hit you outside your home way back when you were in your early seventies. You weren't expected to live, but you did. You weren't expected to walk again, but you did. Your right hip was so badly shattered they couldn't set it and you ended up with that leg several centimetres shorter than the other and yet you got around with the aid of your trusty walking sticks.
You eventually flew to Sydney to find out details about setting up a workshop for pensioners and the like and you came home and proceeded to set up such a place which is thriving still (Beehive Industries). We were all so proud they named Ruston House after you. You deserved the accolades that were spoken on the day the building was opened. If only you had lived to see it happen.
You were living on your own and yet you managed so well despite everything. Here I still have Phil with me and he is wonderful and so helpful but because I have problems getting around and even getting things done now I get so downhearted. I just wish I had some of your get up and go which never seemed to leave you no matter what.
I realise now how much pain you must have been in and yet you didn't complain, or at least not to us, and of course we, being so much younger then, didn't realise how bad it must have been for you at times. You were always such an independent person and never asked us to do very much for you and I feel I need to say how sorry I am that we didn't do more.
I badly need some of your strength of purpose so I can get on with things that are crying out to be done. I am sure we will get there eventually but progress seems oh, so slow.
I feel you are so close at times and I wish I could sit and have a quiet talk as we once did.
Love you as much now as I always did.
xxxxxx
Hi Mimsie, thinking of you and hoping you feel better in yourself soon. Your mum sounds like a wonderful person and I know she's still looking out for you. I am going to a concert with my own Mum on Monday night, we are both really looking forward to it.
ReplyDeleteI find it hard to believe you are in your 80s, my mum is only in her 50s and doesn't have the grasp on blogging and technology that you do!
Take care
SarahMac
Thanks for your visit SarahMac and your kind words. I hope you and your Mum really enjoy the concert next week.
DeleteMy mum was indeed wonderful...for 30 years she cared so well for family and over the next 30 years she worked tirelessly for others doing very important social work.
My son-in-law made me up a little computer when I was in my early 70s and I taught myself to use it. When I felt I was accomplished enough I bought an eMac and now I have an iMac. I am still lacking in many computer skills but I get there and enjoy myself.
Oh Mimsie. Some days life gets a bit hard doesn't it? And pain and frustration are a dreadful combination. Heartfelt hugs.
ReplyDeleteThanks EC. Yes, days and even weeks come along and you feel you are really behind the 8 ball all the time. I guess I just needed a few moments with my Mum to get myself back into gear. I hope you and the SP are recovering now. You've both had so much to contend with and you rarely complain. You are amazing. : )
DeleteMy mother wanted to live to see the turn of the century. We lost her to cancer in 1997. She was 79.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find life easier; what do you want to live to do, and do it. Please let us know about it. We love to read and talk to each other.
I am so sorry your lost your mum when you did. It is always hard no matter when or at what age you have to say goodbye to them. I never thought I'd make 2000 as it always seemed such a long way off but I was fortunate to do so and keep going, at least for now.
ReplyDeleteI guess I just want to be able to do the things I once did but know I can't but I will battle on doing the little I am now able to do. Just getting my home de-cluttered would be my biggest aim and I'm working on it, albeit slowly.
Hugs to you Mimsie, thanks for sharing. xxxxxxx
ReplyDeleteThanks Rae....I still try to hope for the stamina and steadfast purpose she had but find I am lacking in both right now. We'll get there....one day. xxx
ReplyDeleteBig, big, big hugs to you Mimsie, I hope you're on the up again. It's so frustrating when our bodies won't do what we want them to. Your mum sounds so amazing - just like you x
ReplyDeleteThanks so much PPMJ. I guess I am getting there or will do so eventually. My mum was much more amazing than I am or ever will be. She was something else and in some ways I guess I realise that all the more the longer I am without her. x
ReplyDeleteAny thing I can say or do to make things easier for you? I may not be able to do much but I can try to say some nice words. Hugs !
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind thoughts. I have my ups and downs and this was a down. Have sprung back now, at least partly
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